veri busy nowadays.. no time to blog.. dont even have enough time to do work lo..!! like wat i said in my last post.. i reali feel veri stress as if i have not done enough for the coming o level or even prelim..!! this kind of feelings is getting stronger as days passed.. am i giving myself stress?? people say so.. i totally have no idea..

n i need to clarify.. the picture mean nth i jus wan to test posting pic on mu blog.. coz nv did it before n jas they all did so i tried.. ya..but i hav to admit the pic is nice ok..haha.. n these two day i went out!! i nv do anything le.. argh.. i dunno la,,!! so i think i hav alot to blog. sorri for the long post lo!! haha:) let mi c.. bio practical wasnt well done so im kind of sad.. actually i pity myself.. coz.. when im always talking then ppl will say im noisy.. but when i kept quiet ppl will ask mi whats wrong.. see im in such a difficult position.. haha.. im such a poor thing!! hee.. ok.. i went to cwp yesterday@!! argh.. then end up nv do anyhting work.. ya.. this is wat im talking bout.. for the whole trip i kept saying.. today oso.. went for pool[thank to jasmine ang who forced mi to go!!] haha.. oso end up nv do anyhting.. nvm.. later i go do.. so mus blog fast.. yaya.. this mus blog.. i challenge kai an for pool.. then guess wat my standard can win him le.. haha.. wow im so happi.. mus say: he nv give in to mi ok.. i hit all balls myself ok.. ya!! happi happi happi..

yesterday was chinese valentine.. then ya.. one month later.. i will c how la// haha.. ya.. some will understand.. i felt so pampered now le.. how?? haha.. will i get addicted!! haha.. okok..
i hav new favourite colour!! orange pink.. more to come.. haha.. no longer purple.. some will understand this.. haha.. like so bad.. but nvm its a joke.!! n... chee chun is one of my good best friend.. but jasmine dun allow mi to say... haha... this is pink.. :)



shalalalala' Thursday, August 31, 2006























it had been a while since i last update.. this week is kind of packed,, im staying till 6.. i dont know y i do that!! i cant study in group..!i can feel the stress overcoming mi.. i can see doors closing after one an other.. i am not managing my works as well as before!! im going out of the track!!argh.. i jus dunno la.. ok.. i dun wanna talk bout this le..

amos came up wit the idea of writing something good about our cloassmates i think it was a good one so i encouraged him to carry on.. n ya... it had been quite a mess.., haha.. but everyone were having fun writing.. hmmm,, but then i think i lost my paper coz i cant find it.. i dont know where i put it!!! haiya.. so now it looks like i hav not been doing anything for the class.. so i better come up wit something or else people are going to say mi again.. jus wait and see ok.. ya got back our chem n phy practical!! phy was ok.. 19/30.. chem le.. erm.. 28/40 i should say its ok onli,,.not up to my expectation yet.. ha.. what surprise mi was the one who top for the paper.!!! oh my!! i cant believe it.. haha.. but good anyway.. see i told u, u hav the potential wat.. u never believe mi!! it was so coincidental..!! after him was mi and same score but different paper!! then the whole class goes................. wow.. ya.. haha,,,

im opening up my mind.. more n more ppl are konwing so nth much to hide oso.. tt y im blogging it..haha..a big step for mi le.. but then i dun wanna this to affect my studies oso la.. its less than 24h to valentine's day n 2 days to teacher's day celebration n 3 days to teacher's day.. hahah... i dont think i hav anymore to blog oso.. tt all.. :)

shalalalala' Tuesday, August 29, 2006

hey man, once n again im blogging online..!! its the return of action after 10 days.. haha.. i got back my internet connection again n this is goin to b my distraction!!!~~ im sure a number of u miss mi rite?? haha i totally knw u dun hav to say its understandable..now i hav no idea what to write..actually these ten days nth much happen.. i merely miss joel's n karen's blog.. then on mon when i get the chance to go online in school i read karen's n joel's blog..!! it totally touched my heart lo.. i was reali veri focus on their blog.. i dun even knw wat was happening beside mi.. im like in my own world.. ya.. im glad that this thing had finally come to an end.. it had been affecting us for a month n now we r all going to put this at the back of our head.. next.. someone did something veri special.. i mean u nv knw n nv b able to guess that this particular person can actually do these.. i was shocked by that oso.. but it was kind of sweet la reali..haha.. veri sweet haha..

let mi see what else took place during the ten days.. oh ya.. i invented a paper-back blog.. haha which i used it to blog in school since i can blog online anyway.. ya.. it was just some paper then it includes everythings that can b found in my blog.. it was lame funny special unique ok.. who can think of this?? no one expect mi!! wow give myself a clap.. n this paper-back blog was getting popular.. lots n lots of ppl tagged n people are loving it.. so am i.. so i decided to keep the paper-back blog n this online blog..im having two personal blog now man..!! happi..

this week we started off wit the relative velocity.. i totally dont understand that chap.!! damn.. so im going to drop that chapter n i have decided.. then when mdm chong contiune to teach 24.4A i thought i c the light shining for mi.. but when she carry on wit 24.4B i could c that the light was gone.. haha.. c i total suck at relative velocity!! shit man...!!! i htink im finish... not veri long rite??

this paragraph is specailly delicated to these people.... jason lee, jasmine ang, joel leong, karen chew, kelly khoo, leonard goh, joycelyn lim, yun xuan, yi xin, su hui, si hui, pei xian, chee chun, an rui, zi yond, zi gui, alan tarn, [james yap].. i hope i dint left out anyone of u?? if i did pls tell mi n i will add u in here ok.. i wanna say thousands of thank you to u people.. thanks for supporting mi thanks for cooperating wit mi thanks for understanding thanks for helping.. xie xie ni men ting wo dao di!! i reali appreciate it.. ya.. thanks..i love u all.. reali... THANK YOU SO MUCH..

shalalalala' Friday, August 25, 2006

ok i hav to say for the time through out the year,., at this point in time im kind of stressed up.. i dunno y.. but then i jus felt veri stress all of a sudden.. then i feel like crying!! mayb i should cry n i will feeli beta.. ya... jkcshof;ifdsfdsehrfufpocdsklfweopwidfwkd,klsadx
;w'eo,rmjhkrnggbld;fpl'er,[p[that is anyhow type one to xpress my unhappiness..]

shalalalala' Tuesday, August 15, 2006

ok.. yesterday i was too busy to blog.. so i onli tagged..!! hahaha..

yesterday
i forgot wat happen yesterday.. i onli remember that during mt ms cheah came into out class n talk to us bout the retaking thing.. so i wasnt involve oso..!! bore.. then we[not retaking] were to go to 4e2 n saty till the school ends.. it was so noisy.. the ppl there was so inconsiderate.. making so much noise i cant even do anything.. so i went to the toilet wit kelly n then to the canteen n we saw those who r taking oral.. we wished them all the best n went back to the noisy class..!! tt all i can remember for wat happened yesterday..

today
currently im kind of disappointed n not happi now.. n i think i wont b watching click anymore.. i mean there is simply no time!!! ok.. hav bio mock practical today!! its the first time to hav a mock practical n for the first time you see that we do practical in such a quite environment.. kind of weird.. the practical was easy actually is the theory that was hard.. so i believe i wont do veri well for that paper.. nvm mr chong says its onli a mock so dun reali hav to worry.. :) ya.. then during math lesson i was like so angry.. i dont understand wat mdm chong was teaching lo n i was like pissed off.. so i just slammed my pen n dun do.. when mdm chong say: r ur ok..? i was like do i look ok??? n she carried on.. im even more pissed.. luckily karen explained then i roughly understand.. but then when i do hw.. im stuck.. so im pissed again.. then i switched to phy.. haha.. i cant do oso.. so im even more pissed.. like piss for the whole day rite..!!not i wanted oso.. then jus now something can cheer mi up.. but then it turn out to disappoint mi.. so now.. my mood is {extremely not happi} ok... so today is a bad bad day for mi..
-i hate 15/08/2006 argh..-

shalalalala' Tuesday, August 15, 2006

wow wow.. im waiting to watch click n the break-up.. haha..

yea.. this coming tuesday.. chem mock paper!! need to prepare alot.. but i didnt seem to do anything.. saturday went out all day then nv study.. today le.. onli study abit in the late morning.. then started reading my storybook.. haha.. finally eat my lunch.. veri nice lo... long time nv c my mum's cook soup le.. then everyone went out to study!! thanks to my mum i nv study outside b4.. damn shit.. nth much oso.. veri boring weekend!

haiz.. i think i commit myself to the wrong thing!! this shouldnt happen now.. but i dunno how.. so jus let the nature take its course.. i believe things will go as i wished.. everyday will b a happi day for mi!!! thanks to u!! :)
-when i look in your eye, i can that you, wanna b wit mi.....{give my love}

shalalalala' Sunday, August 13, 2006

ok.. quite a interesting day.. taking back our mt o result n eng o level oral.. leave the oral to the last. i think i hav quite alot to say!! ok.. im so distracted in class.. i mean i keep on talking to joel karen n khairul.. then i was like not even listening to the lesson!! shit.. this cant carry on.. i hav to pay 100% attention in class staring from monday!! n the prelim is reali near!! a month.. oh my..!! then it will soon b o level.. im going crazy!!! ar.. somebody pls save mi!! pe!! again.. is captain's ball.. i wonder y captain's le?? haha.. im sick n tired of the game.. always the same.. is kind of boring.. ok..

then after recess the veri scary time.. they give by grouping one by one.. wat e.. its veri scary lo.. then im waiting for my name to b called.. n is like when everybody is gone im still sitting there.. bad omen.. then finally call my name.. together wit kelly khairul jemimah peixian eunice[two] n i cant reali remember.. like so nervous.. haha.. guess wat.. the worries n low confidence was unnecessary.. haha.. we r the a1 group.. wow.. happy.. then i had a1 n distinction.. veri happi..

so now the oral..!! my weakest subject.. report at two on the dot.. n the hall was dirty.. n leonard said..: lets go pick up the litter to impress the examiner.. haha// so lame.. but i dun think he succeed.. so we waited all the way to 2.30.. n the oral commence.. haha.. mi n karen was trying to relax by talking n talking.. then ms sim keep staring at us. haha.. after she went.. my heart starts to beat faster..!! MY TURN!! 10 min was short.. once i started the passage.. i stumbled.. bad start,. then pic was like no help.. not as well elaborated.. n conservation was worse.. i had the feeling tt i went out of point!! aiyo.. i dunno wat to do.. hmm.. sad for mi..ok.. no choice.. its over..[sob sob..]

to jasmine.. erm.. i dun reali knw him but after listening to u.. like i should knw him to change my opinion.. ok.. i actually jus hate tt guy ok.. haha.. relax!!
to karen.. haha.. tt ah beng.. yes keep smiling!! funny..
to joel.. sunniest smile.. haha :)
to myself.. i want to watch click..!!
to*.. 5oo movie hor.. haha.. ;)

shalalalala' Friday, August 11, 2006

HAPPI BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE.. HAHA..
ok.. tokyo drift was reali a nice show.. haha,, worth watching but i still haven watch click!!!! so i need to find some time to watch click n super x girlfriend!! haha..

yesterday
was a total bored nth to do at home.. oso nv revise..!! jus try to read somth about chem but looks like nth enter my head then i wen ton to do math paper n i manage to finish paper 1.. not bad actually n the paper is kind of hard.. haha watch ndp!!! the song was nice.. but this year was like abit short.. i felt that it end veri fast.. carry on watching the singapore idol.. n the show was not bad.. n its the 1st time i watch ever since it started.. n i wonder wat happen to ja n ken.. haha.. rahima n paul is nice..!!

today
haha.. oh no.. im suppose to b revising now.. yet i need to do the mt project.. wat is this?? look.. mt is over.. yet we still hav to do!! our precious time is not enough for this kind of thing.. so i ended up not doing any revision.. so im not goin to use com later hope i can!! i need to spent time for my revision.. i reali need.. n tomorrow we r getting back the mt result.. feeling onli a bit of nervous.. im more afraid of the oral.. i mean my english is simply too poor.. wat happen if i fail my eng???? my life will b over!!!!!! ok.. im so scare.. haha ,yes after all the rest.. school is finally starting tml.. i cant wait to return to school.. i mean home is jus too bore.. isn't it???? but tml hav oral.. nvm.. i shall end here.. if not i will go on on n on bout my eng..
- all the best for mi tml..-

shalalalala' Thursday, August 10, 2006

ok.. i dont care i wan to blog what happen today!!! school was such fun.. when 4e1 come together to do something..the banner was reali nice!! is the effort of 4e1 in achieving the same goal!! haha.. but i was like loss in the beginning.. i dont know wat to do!! wandering around the class room doing nothing.. then i finally settle down with yunxuan n yixin in doing the needle n thread..[ dont know wat is tt call..] but then i still cannot sit there doing that all day.. so i stand again.. n went to one of the group.. n i found smth to do!! i cut a Y.. n its my name..!! ying!! haha.. then im left with nothing again!! then dom's group need some sewing so mi yixin n yunxuan went to help.. we sew the sides of singapore's flat!! everyone was liike: can u sew?? haha.. do i looked like pampered girl???? so.. after the sewing guess wat.. i have nothing to do again.. this time i merely sit down n wait for them to finish!! haha.. the tatoo landed on my hands.. so let hav a tatoo..haha.. i tried to give everyone a tatoo on the face to b united.. but not everyone wants!! e malays dont mdm chong dun joel dun.. so mani ppl dun wan.. however at least half the class hav a tatoo on their face.. n our clique hav the same one.. the logo for this year theme.. but veri sad suhui dont hav.. coz someone took ours.. so!! poor suhui!! n jasmine draw our names on our sleeves..!! nice man.. n i think that we would jus win the banner competition!! haha.. so tt all!!
-i hope i didnt c anyone today!!!-

shalalalala' Tuesday, August 08, 2006

it had been a new start of the week.. to start off with the happening in the corner of class.. i seem to hav the feeling that the atmosphere was less tense.. n less unhappiness.. so isnt this good enough to cheer up my day?? wooo... its something good.. like i always say thing reali change for the beta..haha.. most important of all.. i did something super daring last friday night.. till now i still cant believe tt i reali had summon enough courage to **.. too bad i cant reveal much.. hey dun think of something bad ok.. its perfectly healthy. t think onli 3 knw bout this..

i sld say school was a total fun today.. except for the freaking mt lesson.. starting from today we will assemble in class which i prefer to parade square.. mdm chong starts off we the lesson(relative velocity).. n time passes reali slow this morning.. pe was much beta than last week at least nobody was injured n not so rough today.. haha.. phy.. nth much.. i dunno y but today english lesson i was kind of sleepy.. hmm.. im having phobia for english.. im so afraid tt i will fail my o level eng!! oh gosh.. pretty scary.. this had been appearing in my mind for like a few weeks.. nvm... n then school went all the way to 3.30.. ya.. i have been collecting $$ haha.. it will b great if those $$ were mine.. oh.. wonderful.. n i hav to comment the class photo is quite nice.. good job 4e1.. haha.. tt all..

to joel..im feeling the reconcile is near.. haha.. can u??
to karen.. u r getting less pissed nowadays... is good to c u like tt.. n soon u ppl will b talking..
to khairul[i doubt he can c].. pls open ur golden mouth.. haha..
-i wan to c the rainbow[ n i tried veri hard to write this post in beta eng structure i hope this can help]-

shalalalala' Monday, August 07, 2006

yesterday nv blog.. totally no time.. stay in sch till 6 then went home bath then go 4 night study.. so rush.. n during the clearing it i was so fortunate i dun even lay a finger on the gif.. haha some kindhearted person helped mi.. hee so my table is cleaned without mi cleaning i jus sit there n observed man..!![oopz..] during nightstudy mr whelan baked cookies for us.. haha so good.. fresh from the oven n she get farhan to accompany her fearing that the container cannot pass through the gap in the gate.. kind of funny.. n after tt no ppl accompany mi go home.. so i make khidir n khairul walked wit mi.. afterall they can walk tt side oso.. haha.. i admit im kind of afraid of tt thing la.. hee.. however things seems to b getting beta at our table.. joel was calm karen was not pissed i did not feel difficult.. so time reali helps..

tooday!!
mdm chong knw tt alot of ppl nv do hw n she wasnt pissed at all.. haha coz she knw tt most stayed n help so she give up time to do in class.. pe wasnt good.. i start to dun like pe.. everytime something will happen.. is it a curse or wat?? wat is happening to 4e1.. on my.. bio practical was as usual.. luckily nth happen tis time everything goes on smoothly.. but there isnt remedial after school.. i dun reali feel happpi.. i dunno y instead i prefer to stay back.. mayb im used to it.. but i still hav eng conferencing after school ends at 1.30+ eat then talk talk then 3 le.. went home.. tried to do math.. but cant solve.. damn pissed.. went to slp hoping tt my mind will clear.. haiz..

although khairul still nv talk but i can sort of feel a sense of bond between the four of us.. holding us together..!! e whole incident i was e 1st to mention bout e giving up n im e 1st to like pissed n even cried.. but yet we r ok.. then joel n karen is the positive 1 n keep mi going.... now is e opposite.. although they wanted to give up but there jus cant like smth preventing them.. like wat i experience last time.. this is e bond man.. keeping us together.. so i still believed there things will change for the beta..!! :)
-feel like deleting this blog!!!-

shalalalala' Friday, August 04, 2006

things r getting out of hands.. n its beyond my control now.. i dun think i can save the situation anymore.. i dun think i hav e power tt i always believed in.. now even joel e positive all along.. is giving up.. giving up for good i should say.. he is a total strange today.. i nv had this complicated situation b4.. n now is wat i've learned.. nv make ur good friend angry wit u..it can b a real hard time.. after two weeks of struggling other than mi.. both karen n joel is karen of tired n pissed.. n i dun think tt i deserve e happi time.. how.. i felt tt im so selfish..haiz.. im kind of in a mess.. but how.. khairul onli talks to mi.. i thought tt mayb today can hav a change but still e situation totally disappointed mi.. instead of changing for e beta things r getting worse.. worse then e past two weeks.. they r giving up n khairul didint show any interest in talking to them.. oh my.. wat can b done now?? suddenly i need a hand tt can help us.. but.. i reali felt unfair for them.. they reali didnt do anything to deserve this kind of treatment u knw.. so now e onli problem n solution lies in the hand of khairul.. if he ever open his mouth i think tt they will still open their hearts for him.. so i reali hope tt time can solve this difficult situation ever in our lives..like i always say i can nv give up in finding any trace of hope for ur.. even if u guys r giving up.. but i still thinks tt e problem will eventually b solved jus like a math question.. as long as u nv give up u will always hav a chance of finding e solution.. so e same to this point of time.. giving can onli b a short term solution..n i can totally understand ur feelings.. afteri had experience b4 .. dunforget.. i even cried a few times.. but to think of it.. i felt tt e tears somehow worth at least i save a friendship.. KAREN N JOEL.. DUN FORGET IM ALWAYS THERE.. DUN GIVE UP HOPE ON MI OK.. IM ALWAYS E MEMBER OF OUR GROUP OK.. REMEMBER THIS.. U ALL STILL HAV MY BY UR SIDES.. :) LOVE U GUYS..

shalalalala' Wednesday, August 02, 2006

b4 i go into e nv ending story let mi say bout today.. a short day.. then finally i went for pirates of e carribean.. it was kind of nice n funny ya n it is super cold throughout the whole whole.. then tt amos forget to take my a math text.. he simply left it inside the cinema.. on gosh.. suddenly when we were bout to reach the mrt.. i remembered.. so he jus speed back n retrive it for mi.. haha luckily it was there..!! went home.. NO MORE SPONGEBOB..~~

ok back to e latest.. khairul still refuses to talk to them n they r like bringing all friends to school.. haha!! n they seem to b at their extreme when both of them r pissed..!! being e middle man its a hard thing.. but later in the day.. there is a change.. yixin n khairul had a change in place.. hmm.. they r happi.. ya its something good.. but not totally for mi.. i jus cant adapt to e new surrounding.. now e 4 of us r separated.. wat if things remain like tt forever?? i dunno.. e distance had lowered e change of having a reconcile.. im sad i hav to say.. like losing a good friend.. when he sit there i will lose much fun.. but nvm.. i mean if this arrangement can make them happi then i should go on wit it.. i cannot jus think for myself.. im having good days for a week so mayb now is their turn..i wan a time machine.. i wan to go back to 2 weeks time n change e situation totally.. i dun wan e fight.. i wan e old days.. go back to when he will make fun of joel.. go back to when mi n karen hav fun wit him.. go back to when he will bully slap or beat joel.. go back to when we call joel asexual.. go back to when he will ask joel question.. go back to when he will take karen's n joel's stuff without asking.. go back to when we share our laughter n sorrows.. go back to e time like b4.. can someone jus grant my wish for once.. n honestly speaking i dun wan e change in seat.. i reali dun wan..im at a total lose..
-I DESPREATLY NEED A TIME MACHINE-

shalalalala' Tuesday, August 01, 2006